Coburn Kids

The appointments never end!!! First off, Caden is 8 months old today, (yeah!) and his nurse was here today. She’s very pleased with how he’s grabbing toys and even doing a little bit of back-and-forth between his hands. He’s starting to get a little more steady when you prop him up, building those tummy and back muscles. He’s starting to move a lot in his crib too as he pulls those little legs up and wiggles.

This little boy is the happiest and best baby you will ever meet I swear. I challenge anyone who has a ‘good’ baby to compare them to Caden and have an NG tube shoved up their nose and down their throat and for their baby to just lay there the whole time. No squirming, no crying, no gagging. It’s incredible. He’s so happy all the time and it’s only when eating that he fusses. I can’t help it, I’m in love with the little guy. Those huge smiles and laughs he gives me just melt the heart.

We’re very lucky with Caden right now, I can’t believe how well he is doing developmentally and socially. His interactions and preferences for human faces (big deal). The fact that he’s doing well for his adjusted age of 5 months, I’m truly blessed. We are certainly not out of the woods yet for things such as cerebral palsy and other delays but right now, besides his feeding issues, he’s doing just wonderful. His numerous doctors just look at his medical history and are amazed that this little baby is okay. There’s always that small part of me that fears the worst though… I mean it stands to reason that if you KEEP going to all these doctor’s constantly that something will drop on you. I think the fear comes from the fact that with Caden, it always seems to be when I think everything is going well that something big happens.

I was excited and for the first time wasn’t nervous when I got our ultrasound of Caden at 20 weeks. Then hearing those words from your doctor “there’s a problem….” and finding out our baby had a birth defect. I was feeling fine the day that I delivered him and went from great to emergency c-section and my liver in danger of rupturing in a matter of hours. Then the NICU stay and so much equipment, medicine and medical problems over the course of 4 long months; with more heart-catching-in-your-throat moments then I’d care to recall. Having such a great day with my girls when Caden was supposed to be stable at 3 months. Expecting my little boy to come home within days and then having him Code for no reason that was ever determined. It seems to be a pattern and so I feel like I’m constantly holding my breathe.